It's All Coming to an End

I can't believe that in September, I went from thinking that I was going to stay in the same, small town and not doing anything interesting to going to a large, different city in Sweden. Being accepted as one was kinda scary when I got the call. My friends cried hearing that I was going to be one. I can only imagine what they are going to do at my farewell party. 

I can't believe that my sophomore year of high school was coming to a close in less than 2 days. This year at my tiny school has brought so many great memories. But it has also brought some bad ones. I have overcome some of the strangest and amazing things for a girl my age. 

Just in the past 8 months this is what I have been going:

October 2012- I was accepted as a foreign exchange student.
November 2012- I turned 16 and hit a phase of realization.
December 2012- I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts.
January 2013- Some of the cysts burst and I failed an exam.
February 2013- I was accepted to Sweden.
April 2013- My host sister contacted me while I was in Cape Cod.
May 2013- Started talking to my favorite person in the world
June 2013- I finish my Sophomore year of high school.

I realize that I only have about 48 more days left in America. And have decided to make a 30 item Bucket List that I can complete before I leave on July 31st. I want to include everything that I would have thought about when I should be in my normal high school with all of my friends. Thinking of ideas of what to do and who I want to do them with is going to be the hardest part of it all.

I know that having fun with my friends and family will make leaving just a little bit more harder. But I am ready for it. I have a support group of other exchange students from my home district and the host families. I am excited to go over and have the time of my life, but also I want to get the year over with so I can come back and enjoy my senior year with my friends. 

I have one thing in mind that I know will want to make me want to travel back to Sweden many times. When it comes time for me to leave in July, I won't want to leave my native country, but I will want to go to Sweden to have fun and learn some new things. And when it comes time for my to return in July 2014, I won't want to come back because of the people I have met, the things I've done, and the experiences and memories I will have from Sweden, but I will want to come back to America to see my friends and family, tell them about my experiences, friends, and memories, and start a new chapter of my life where I am a new person with a new outlook on things. 

Why can't I just leave for Sweden right now?